i still wear these chains you gave me
i adorn them like a prize
just a testament to all those times
that you cut me down to size

how could I resist you
with your angelic smile
you spread your legs and asked
if I could stay a little while

ive done this before
whats the harm of once more
im only looking for
a reason to feel alive

but its all over now
knew i had to escape somehow
but its all over now
blown away like this cry in the wind

but its all over now
nothing left but this guilt to hold on to
but its all over now
washed away like these tears in the rain

just a stranger passing by
trying to find my way
did you ever really
expect me to stay?

i was Columbus
you the queen of Spain
now when you’re with your king
do you still cry out my name?

down in the temple
i was the priest
it was the last supper
and you were the feast

but its all over now
i knew i had to escape somehow
but its all over now
blown away like this cry in the wind

but its all over now
nothing left but this guilt to hold on to
but its all over now
washed away like these tears in the rain

02  almost human   [top]

there is nothing as lovely
as the way the moonlight falls
on your naked skin

lying here
touching you
it feels so divine it must be a sin

i know its a narrow path to heaven
but your door was wide
open tonight

and if this is the way to hell
then i almost feel
like its all right

at times like this
i almost feel human
at times like this
i almost feel alive

even the richest dont deny it
these simple pleasures
are the best

and i almost feel this matters
as you lay your head
against my chest

but i dont know where you were last night
as we lay here struggling
for something to say

dont you worry your pretty little head
lets just wish
this night away

at times like this
i almost feel human
at times like this
i almost feel alive

03  someone to blame   [top]

if theres a picture worth a thousand words
than it must be of you
if you say this is how it has to be
than it must be true

if i could do it all yesterday
would i still be too late?
if i could read into the future
would this still have been my fate?

you never understood
it always did more harm than good

even though im wrong
youre the one i blame
take away my guilt
take away my shame

after all ive done
youre still the one i blame
everyone needs someone
someone to blame

theres a distant look youre giving me
the writings on the wall
its funny how I used to think your sighs
meant nothing at all

my lips try to mouth the words
that never come out right
im sure ill find them somehow, somewhere
on another broken night

i know youve heard it all before
please let me say it just once more

even though im wrong
youre the one i blame
take away my guilt
take away my shame

after all ive done
youre still the one i blame
everyone needs someone
someone to blame

04  too little, too late   [top]

just once more
i said five times ago
but now here i am
here i am again

just once more
to feel whole again
but this hole
never goes away

and when im in your arms
i could just surrender
but then i look at you
and i remember

id like to touch your perfect soul
id like to make you lose control
id like to be your favorite sin
id like to feel you deep within
id like to mend all of your wrongs
id like to sing your favorite song

too little, too late
too little, too late

i always knew
that you could see
but i never knew
you saw right through me

so here it is
our last goodbye
you can say that im no good
but you cant say i didnt try

id like to touch your perfect soul
id like to make you lose control
id like to be your favorite sin
id like to feel you deep within
id like to mend all of your wrongs
id like to sing your favorite song

too little, too late
too little, too late

05  nothing   [top]

i was up last night thinking
about what i had to say
and now ill try to tell you
i hope the words dont get in the way

i dont believe in destiny
or a guiding hand of fate
i dont believe that good things come
to all of those who wait

i dont believe in heaven
i dont believe in hell
i dont believe we have a soul
that we can sell

in case you were wondering
in case you havent heard
i think that faith is
just a matter of words

i don’t believe in love
its just something that we do
i hope i havent spoiled
this magic moment for you

i dont believe in life after death
i think we rot away
but who really wants to live
forever anyway?

taking away my everything
‘til all i have is nothing

ive done my soul searching
ive read the "holy" book
and what happiness I couldn’t buy
i took

ive tried so hard
i did all that i could do
i held on to what i had
‘til nothings left to hold on to

ive searched the heavens
for some kind of sign
just looking for
some peace of mind

i dont believe the meek
will inherit the earth
i dont believe in much
for what its worth

i dont believe in answers
to all of your prayers
i dont believe
in a god who cares

all I know
is all I see
this nothing that we have
means everything to me

taking away my everything
‘til all i have is nothing

06  monsters we become   [top]

it all began that summers eve
sometime back in 1993
between the roses and the radio
thats where you did this to me

it only took half an hour
but it seemed like a lifetime in your arms
many greater men than me
have fallen for your charms

if i could take it all back
would i change what i have done?
monsters we are
lest monsters we become

now i lay here helpless
watching your footprints in the sand
counting all the falling stars youve
held within your hands

add one more to your list
and call it by my name
in flesh and in blood youve
staked your claim

if i could take it all back
would i change what i have done?
monsters we are
lest monsters we become

07  faith   [top]

truth like poison
lies like wine
goes down easy
most of the time

words are weapons
violent is life
so easy to believe
when youre holding the knife

hate so perfect
this broken vow
i should have learned
my lesson by now

blind like adam
hungry like eve
the serpent is calling
i want to believe

you are the cross i choose to bear
you are the crown of thorns i wear
you nail me up and leave me hanging here
you whisper sweet lies in my ear

i die of thirst in the endless sea
you swear you’ll make it up to me
and i almost believe you
i almost believe you

like the morning after
like the unspoken fear
its the distance between
even when youre here

best of intentions
or so you say
no wonder its always
been this way

blind like faith
these moments of doubt
opened my eyes
now im living without

you are the cross i choose to bear
you are the crown of thorns i wear
you nail me up and leave me hanging here
you whisper sweet lies in my ear

i die of thirst in the endless sea
you swear you’ll make it up to me
and i almost believe you
i almost believe you

08  the sky is falling   [top]

a saint was searching for redemption
sought solace in his prayers every night
but then a sister came and crossed his path one day
and helped to show him the light

now i heard he hasnt left his bed since then
though he still sings glory halleliu
but his praises sound more broken now
and it isnt god hes singing too

god never cries..
  god never cries...
   god never cries...

even when the sky is falling

a man thought he was an angel
tried to fly to the heart of the sun
for a moment, he almost had wings
in another moment, undone

now i must admit, i know these men well
ive walked down the same streets before
ive been the saint, ive been the sinner
ive been the virgin, ive been the whore

god never cries..
  god never cries...
   god never cries...

even when the sky is falling

09  your favorite thing   [top]

theres a place you like to run to
when youre trying to make the craving go away
im the voice that calls out to you each night
asking you to come and play

you always thought you could get the best of me
despite all those whove come before
you only thought you needed a little
but now you always need a little more

i dont care who you want to be
i dont care about the others you see
as long as i can use you

i dont care about what you think
i dont care if you’ve had too many drinks
as long as i can abuse you

  im your favorite thing
  i know you love me like you do
  just your favorite thing
  ive never cared at all for you

i know you tried to quit me
five times last week alone
but i know youll come running back to me
to worship at the foot of my throne

you used to think you were my master
but now you’ve become my slave
i have given you so little
for me youve thrown your whole life away

i dont care who you want to be
i dont care about the others you see
as long as i can use you

i dont care about what you think
i dont care if you’ve had too many drinks
as long as i can abuse you

i dont care about how you feel
i dont care if you have to lie, cheat, and steal
as long as you give me your time

i dont care if youre rich or poor
i dont care if you want so much more
as long as you are mine

10  the infidel   [top]

you move slower now
you hide your face, you dress in black
your touch is colder now
like shards of ice upon my back

you hate life
all because of how you feel
i hide the knife
your talk of suicides too real

i play the hero
i tried to be at six years old
but i cant save you
even if i were twice as bold

ive tried to find a place
ive tried to keep my faith

youre afraid of everything
even the shadows on the wall
you hate the slightest touch
can you feel anything at all?

you wear a mask
you try to play your counterpart
you say youre not a victim
but its written on your heart

i used to believe
but you made me the infidel
there is no heaven
but you showed me the way to hell

ive tried to find a place
ive tried to keep my faith

11  play the game   [top]

ive tried to read between the lines
ive tried to leave it all behind

theres a way to bend
theres a way to break
theres only so much
a man can take

youve given all you had to give

i dont know why
i dont know how
i do what i do
to win somehow

play the game

ive tried to stay satisfied
ive tried to keep it all inside

ive tried to find the words to say
ive tried to win these games we play

theres a way to move
theres a way to win
you roll the dice
in this game of sin

you always played your part so well

i dont know why
i dont know how
i do what i do
to win somehow

play the game

i dont know why
i dont know how
i do what i do
to win somehow

play the game

12  walk on water   [top]

so you want something for nothing
but nothings for free
everything has its price
its own philosophy

but you get what you can take
and you take what you can get
you try not to lose sight
but youve already lost it

you... cant wash the blood from your hands
ive... never seen the promised land

walk on water
part the sea
walk on water
prove this to me

you say this time you mean it
you say this time youre sure
well i just can’t believe it
ive heard those words before

ive yet to see a miracle
pass before these eyes
ive yet to feel the hand of fate
and its no surprise

you... cant wash the blood from your hands
ive... never seen the promised land

walk on water
part the sea
walk on water
prove this to me

13  already gone   [top]

somewhere south in New Orleans
theres a place where she goes to stand
sometimes with the world on her shoulders
sometimes with empty hands

her eyes are as cold as ice
and her heart is deep in debt
shes given up on living
but she doesnt want to die just yet

already gone...

and a silence surrounds her
as do men who dont know her name
they tell her of love and lust
and she thinks theyre one and the same

her skin is smooth like silk
and her body burns with a fire
she’s given up on love and trust
but she hasnt given up on desire

already gone...

and now she fears she feels too much
and now she’s so afraid to touch

14  even the gods themselves   [top]

lies on my tongue
wrongs i have done
my life has been sad and profane

mountains ive crossed
wars i have lost
and still i cant say why i came

even the gods themselves contend in vain
even the gods themselves

angel with broken wings
choir that couldn’t sing
these things i have tried to forget

shards of broken glass
scars from the past
these things i cant help but regret

even the gods themselves contend in vain
even the gods themselves

times i sat still
another man killed
maybe mankinds the best god could do

this empty space
fallen from grace
we're not even enjoying the view

even the gods themselves contend in vain
even the gods themselves

15  in the name of ?   [top]

ive been wondering
why this all happened
ive been wondering
what your reasons were

did you do it for money?
did you do it for free?
did you do it for yourself?
did you do it for me?

did you do it for pleasure?
did you do it for pain?
if you could do it all over
would you do it again?

did you do it for love?
did you do it for hate?
did you do it for the people?
did you do it for the state?

and we’ll live never knowing
and we’ll live never knowing why

did you do it for a reason?
did you do it for a whim?
did you know what would happen?
did you go out on a limb?

did you do it for the future?
did you do it for the past?
did you do it for forever?
you know nothing lasts

in the name of ?

and we’ll live never knowing
and we’ll live never knowing why

in the name of ?
in the name of ?
in the name of ?
in the name of ???